Vegies and more vegies

Thank good i love Veggies I'm eating greens reds yellows oranges i had a salad with dinner today with 4 different types of lettuce I'm working hard on taking my vitamins every day. Doc says I'm low in vitamin B so taking that to .I'm going to the gym 3 times a week i know i feel better for it, and i have been doing it so far but i really need to find something i look forward to doing, I'm going to start a yoga class and when i lose more weight and have more flexibility I'm going to join a kick boxing aerobic class, or maybe even a Karate class . If i think to much about my lengthy goal i get overwhelmed so for now i try to take it day by day .I do have treats i had a chocolate bar on Saturday as to not deprive myself of snacks just to treat my self ,no good not letting go once in a while.I do think it would be allot easier for long term change if my husband really cared about his health to he keeps saying he knows he's not in good health but then slams back chips and a chocolate bar. The other night right as i got in bed it was after 12 midnight and in walks jay into the bedroom with a glass of coke and a fudgsicle in his mouth as crawls in bed. I gave him such a dirty look and he new i was pissed. How could he be SO insensitive he knows I'm trying hard to loss weight and get healthy and he did not even care.... I guess i have to work on me, and not think cause I'm ready for change he should be too, i cant help him with change until he wants change i just wish he could respect my wishes and keep that crap away from me especially late at night .

Island dream

Waves lapping on the shore. Peaceful breezes,white sandy beaches. Away from the daily grind and noisy cars where i can lay and let tension slowly drift away. Varadero cuba where i will soon be no more a dream.

change

well i have decided to embrace change i have begone a journey in to eating and exercising regularly. i have serious addiction to Pepsi and coke and have battled with it for almost all my life . In the last two months i have kicked the habbit was driking at least 4 to 5 cans a day now maybe 1 a day if not days with none instead water and REAL fruit juice and its been no problem . so in the last two weeks since i started my journey i have lost 6 pounds i can feel it and i really must say i feel better my mined and body .The truth being i want to be healthy and how i have felt in the last 4 months felt awful since Oct i gained some weight and it makes me sick to say it i have been trying for almost a year and a half to lose weight and was doing it i lost a total of 35 pounds.. and well just feel way off the wagon. I'm tired all the time and and feel sick allot but i remember how good i felt when i was eating better and was thinner iv done it twice i can do it again this time i will stick with it i was going to try eating Raw but i have to be real and realize i need to just try to slowly embrace eating healthier and smaller portions. So i will be writing as i go wish me luck

Thankful

Well today i think God gave me a pinch in my side to wake me up from thinking some time life sucks.One of my girls- friends ran away today a mother and Father were Phoning around frantically to find her. In my girls searches on the phone and Internet they found her and the parents wanted them to accompany them, show them where their daughter was. So off they went and when they came back The mother of the Run away girl wanted to talk to me she seemed lost in her grief and anger about what her child did and i mean child 12 years old ,her child was walking the streets and hanging out with a boy and another girl. When she talked to me she was so thankful for my support in letting the girls help her find her daughter and began to tell me that her childhood was not a good one parents where not really there for her and that she was always getting in trouble and how she is trying to tell her daughter that she wants better for her and that's why there are rules . She told me that her Daughter is on med for Anger issues, Rage . She then said well i just had a baby a little while ago and just found out I'm pregnant again, i said OH is this good news she started to have tears in her eyes as she said no i don't know what I'm going to do I'm really scared. She told me she talked to her daughter about it and said to her I'm going to need your help please try hard to behave.She said to me and this is what she does. So i reasherd her that if her daughter was hanging out with my girls that she would not have to worry .I felt to hug her but, i didn't,i should have. After she left i felt so strange i guess looking at my life i have a good husband and he's got a great job and i have more then i could ask for really .Then i thought of my upbringing and how i thought my auntie was SO stricked and how i envied all my friends that got to do what they wanted to they would have no curfew very few rules no chores, but most of those friends that i had back then are well messed up got pregnant young by more then one guy and well long storey short went no where in life.... ,Because i was taken care of
by my aunt,and watched over by god i have a good life.I cant imagine having a 12 year old a 9 year old boy a 6 year old a new born baby and another one on the way and shes younger then me .So i just wanted to say thanks mom for taking care of me and being tough on me even thought i hated you for it back then,im abetter person for it all and thank god for rescuing me from a dismule childhhod and future that i could have had.. I AM THANKFUL.

Caffeine and Sugar Blues

Well stared off my day with full intentions of getting lots done around the house. Got some laundry done and vacuumed the house ,and made a good dinner, But in between that i watched about 2 hours of tv and Napped through most of it . Why was i so tired ? Kids had the day off today maybe that through me off my routine . I have noticed over the last 2 years that i get very tired during the day and need a nap . I know i need to get to bed earlier and that's one of my worst enemies is that i stay up late cant fall asleep just lay there,it can drive you mad . Also i use to drink 4 to 5 cans of Cola a day and i have stopped that over the last month and a half,I have Maybe 1 can a day now,today i had none, Maybe I'm going through widthdrwls from not having the daily Caffeine and sugar in my body . I think i need to find a natural sugar to replace the cola to keep my energy up . Cause if i don't do something I'm going to sleep my life away or be strung out on Caffeine and sugar ,neither sound good to me.

A Penny saved is a Penny earned

Money where does it go ? I'm writing this because i know we all go threw this at least ones in our lives and i know relating to others going through this does help , Me and Jay have more then enough to give us a happy comfortable life But our spending habits are way out of hand .Nether of us are strong enough to do things right ALL THE TIME,we are both week but on the other hand we both work hard for our pay and want to enjoy life and boy do we. I'm in charge of the finances and you would think that the way i was raised with a mother that taught me to save and and be thrifty that it would make it easy for me to be really good with our money but some where along the last few years I lost that, we both just blow it like is going out of stile .I have a friend that is remarkable with her and her husbands money THEIR money She should be a money canceller.I think they make less then half of what we make and they live a very comfortable life. I Know it would be to hard to do what she does but i know we could do much better then we are . So it's back to the drawing board "Being real" looking at a balance of having fun in life but not being stupid about or spending habits. I want to have money for a rainy day .. CAUSE LIKE MY MOMMA SAID A PENNY SAVED IS A PENNY EARNED