weight loss like walkin the high wire

Well since i came back from Cuba iv had a tough time getting back to exercising ,.eating right etc and iv been paying for it gained two pounds back, and feel like SHIT . So I'm back on track these last couple days went shopping a bought some cloths and looking forward to the summer so sitting her with a glass of water one of many of the day and No fatty snacks at night . Hopefully i don't fall off the weight loss high wire ...wish me luck .

MOM and DAD

Fathers day is here , Mothers day just passed Dad What little memories i have of you race through my mind, So many emotions keep haunting me trying to understand why they wont let me be. Did you really even care about about me.? why where you never there? I miss you so much wish ,i could have had a relashonship with you. I wish i could have asked these questions before you passed. I wonder if you look down on me from heaven i hope you are proud of me.Even through all my good and bad memories I love you.  Mother feeling the sadness fall from my eyes the tears a slow but constant release of pain from the past years of my childhood, Most the time there are no ways to find the words to describe those days.. Holding on to what i hoped to be ,Wanting answers i seem to never get eats me up inside plays like a record skiping over and over in my mined. Its time to face reality that YOU as MOTHER will never come back to me.I want to FORGIVE and FORGET niether are possible for me still. I feel like im the mother and you are the child .Iv made it this far in life im going to make it all the way im, proud of who i am and what iv accoplished in my life. I do believe all iv seen and all i have gone through in my childhood this has made me stronger Iv learned from what i have seen  . Im not damaged goods or a lost soul  JUST. YOUR CHILD Who will always wonder why my parents did what they did i will search for answers i guess till the day you die mom. One day i will learn to forgive but i will never forget. your daughter mom and your Prinncess Dad.

my other world

In sleep life's constraints unbuttoned and unzipped then cast off with the rest of the laundry in the hamper my fluffy pillow a giant sponge to sop up any left over worries spilling out my ears from my mined.
In sleep its my number that wins the lottery.
In sleep i can fly with the birds and travel to far away places go back in time revisit memorable times,
In sleep there are no wrinkles or grey hair and i can go back to being 20 again and money is of no concern.
My dream world is my haven there i can still believe in fairy tales, and guardian angels ,and prince charming and happy endings.

Child at heart

Child like the ability to still, laugh, imagine, hope, and wonder. Life does not have to be so serious. We all have a inner child we all need to let out more often.I still remember what it was like to explore the world when i was a child ,i never wanted to go to sleep. Like a child at heart i still get wildly enthusiastic about the little things,
I'm a exited kid a Christmas
I love summer time vacations and road trips .
I enjoy rolling up my pants feeling the sand between my toes skipping barefoot through the waves. Watching the sunsets ,feeling the rain on my face .
Always remember never to forget to imagine, hope, and wonder. Life is your adventure let the child in you explore.

Call out the hidden child