Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Thankful

Well today i think God gave me a pinch in my side to wake me up from thinking some time life sucks.One of my girls- friends ran away today a mother and Father were Phoning around frantically to find her. In my girls searches on the phone and Internet they found her and the parents wanted them to accompany them, show them where their daughter was. So off they went and when they came back The mother of the Run away girl wanted to talk to me she seemed lost in her grief and anger about what her child did and i mean child 12 years old ,her child was walking the streets and hanging out with a boy and another girl. When she talked to me she was so thankful for my support in letting the girls help her find her daughter and began to tell me that her childhood was not a good one parents where not really there for her and that she was always getting in trouble and how she is trying to tell her daughter that she wants better for her and that's why there are rules . She told me that her Daughter is on med for Anger issues, Rage . She then said well i just had a baby a little while ago and just found out I'm pregnant again, i said OH is this good news she started to have tears in her eyes as she said no i don't know what I'm going to do I'm really scared. She told me she talked to her daughter about it and said to her I'm going to need your help please try hard to behave.She said to me and this is what she does. So i reasherd her that if her daughter was hanging out with my girls that she would not have to worry .I felt to hug her but, i didn't,i should have. After she left i felt so strange i guess looking at my life i have a good husband and he's got a great job and i have more then i could ask for really .Then i thought of my upbringing and how i thought my auntie was SO stricked and how i envied all my friends that got to do what they wanted to they would have no curfew very few rules no chores, but most of those friends that i had back then are well messed up got pregnant young by more then one guy and well long storey short went no where in life.... ,Because i was taken care of
by my aunt,and watched over by god i have a good life.I cant imagine having a 12 year old a 9 year old boy a 6 year old a new born baby and another one on the way and shes younger then me .So i just wanted to say thanks mom for taking care of me and being tough on me even thought i hated you for it back then,im abetter person for it all and thank god for rescuing me from a dismule childhhod and future that i could have had.. I AM THANKFUL.

2 comments:

  1. That was a great write Charlene. Thanks for sharing. I'll be your mom loves what you wrote! Sometimes it takes us a while to understand that we were cared for and not controlled....

    Keep writing!

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  2. Thanks Aunty it was kind of my "IT" moment i think god needed me to see ,suck it up you have a good life ..Look at what you could have had kind of thing

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